It occurs to me, with all the birth healing that I do, that I have not shared my story, my learning, my wisdoms with you here on birth, life, and celebration.
When I work with someone in birth healing, the first place I go back to is their own birth
Whatever is remembered and whatever comes to light as we work together is where we begin. All birth healing begins with our own births. We must go back to our own entry point to be able to guide our new ones to theirs. Like it or not, we are intimately involved with the ushering in of new life – a powerful and sacred journey of arrival. As you can see from my own story below, birth healing can be done years after giving birth, but how wonderful to offer it as a gift to yourself, your newborn and your lives together from the start.
Years ago a wise woman healer and friend walked me back to my own birth. What did I discover? That I had not wanted to be here! I knew what I was being born into and I shuddered out of the womb and hid myself from my own life. It was painful and almost impossible to be me in the confines of the complex dramas of our apparently normal family life. For me.
What was my path to healing? I re-birthed into the waiting arms of my guardian angels, guides and ancestor spirits who love me divinely. Even my living grandparents at the time were overjoyed to have me here. All of them were so happy, they rejoiced to see me. I was re-born.
We go through many births and deaths here in this life
They are all to be commemorated and celebrated. Our continuing spiritual evolution on earth is a breath-taking joy to the realms of heaven and the song of the universe going on around and within us. When we cry, heaven sighs and aches with us, when we joy, the stars dance. Our struggles here on earth power the universe with compassion. We are creators. Pulsing out into the universe through our struggles and conflicts, we feed the very ether surrounding us with unimaginable creative, compassionate energy.
The Key to Life
More of my story – several years after this first birth work I then trained in birth healing. For any uninitiated into the healing path, that means that I was healed while I learned how to work with birth healing for others. The stories I experienced within my own learning group – of how influential we women are upon the whole of the birth process from inception and gestation through birth – defy our ability to imagine them. We have no clear idea of the keys to life and death that we hold in our hearts, which are connected to our wombs, which govern life. It is not a woman’s womb that is the key to life, it is her heart. Only by taking care of the heart of women will we, as a society, put the issues of life and death to rest among us.
My Birth Healing Revelation
That said, during my own healing, spirit revealed to me that my huge ovarian fibroid tumor surgically removed 30 years ago was my sixth child whom I had refused to bear. After having birthed 5, I was dead set against having another child. Dead set. And I almost killed myself over it. (My tumor was benign and removed – a gift of grace, but at the cost of my reproductive capacities.)
I had been afraid of what people would think and say of me if I was pregnant, again. I felt I was not being responsible by having so many children (the force and influence of culture and family) and simply set myself, after my 5th, to say that was all. This was not illogical at the time, in fact it seemed like a good sensible decision, but it was, as it turned out, the refusal of a loving, gifted future to be had with this sixth child who was not allowed to come into our family because of my shame and embarrassment. Here was another opportunity to forgive myself. At that point, I was so wrapped up in myself that was all I could see and do.
The Message
A couple of weeks ago, now a good 5 years after this revelation, I was in another learning/healing class, and the spirit of my unborn child came through and told me how sad it was because of all the birthdays it had missed. Thirty years later, I finally connected with my unborn child, and was able to ask for its forgiveness and release that spirit to move on its way.
When you come to me for birth healing, I have trodden the path along which I lead you. I am the one who knows the shock of seeing, the pain of learning and the compassion of loving myself and all my children. I will always be this little one’s spirit mother; no matter where they go and what form they take, I am part of this spirit’s journey, through the freedom of revealing love and healing forgiveness.
The final gift came as I worked with this blessed child this morning – a message for us all.
Birthdays are to be celebrated!
The sheer joy of incarnating into life on earth is a preciously sought jewel in the spirit realms. Every Birth Day we experience while here on earth is to be celebrated as a gift of love and great joy from god, the universe, goddess, higher self or personal power – whatever is your connection to the unseen energies of love that power this world and give us life.
Heal, and Celebrate your Birth. The heavens do!
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